Faith?

I hear, and my body trembles;
my lips quiver at the sound;
rottenness enters into my bones;
my legs tremble beneath me.
Yet I will quiety wait for the day of trouble to come upon people who invade us.
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Yet I will rejoice in the Lord;
I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
God, the Lord, is my strength.

Habakkuk 3:16,18

What is a faith like this, that knows the destruction God will allow and stands to cling to Him anyway? Faith like a child? Naive, ignorant faith? No. I want an adult faith - one that knows consequence and suffering - with the eagerness of a child. Where is this faith? I cannot conjure it within myself, or "fake it until I make it." Am I to pray for faith, needing faith to trust God will grant my request? Am I making this too complicated?

I choose to believe, at least part of the time.
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